I spent yesterday eagerly absorbing the words of Tom Wright about virtue – how character comes from a million small decisions that eventually culminate in right actions at the right time.
I was congratulating myself on all the small decisions that I’ve been making lately to go against my nature and develop a ‘second nature’ that is more virtuous – more like Christ.
Apparently it didn’t work…!
Last night I drove my car straight into the driver’s door of another vehicle after they ran a red light. Christ would have checked the driver was okay. Christ would have forgiven the driver’s passenger as they said they were going to claim it was your fault. Christ would have acted like a Christian.
Me – oh no! I called the passenger a “b*tch” and said in front of the cop that I wanted to “smack her in the face”.
Seriously! Just half a day after absorbing all that wonderful stuff about virtue!
When the cop asked me if I had been drinking I replied “No! I was crocheting with a friend from church!”.
a) How sad is that for a Friday night
b) If you’re going to claim you’re a church going person, perhaps it would be good to act just a LITTLE bit more like Christ!
c) when the cop asks if there’s anything valuable in your car, it’s okay that he looks surprised when you beg him to rescue your crochet
Despite being in a world of hurt, I have virtually no visible battle scars, so am seriously peeved. Two slightly black eyes, one massively sore sternum, bruised knee & sore hip – but nothing really visible to elicit the serious sympathy I want. Ripped off 
Lesson of the evening – safety belts and air bags literally save lives. I cannot believe I walked away without a head injury. Prayers work – although this wasn’t what I was thinking of when I told God I needed time off work…
Praise God the other driver was completely unharmed – despite my inability to check on him, God was looking out for him. I went 60kph straight into his driver’s door and he was completely unhurt.
Praying that my car is written off so we get the agreed value from the insurance company.
Praying that one day I might actually have instincts that were in line with Christ.
October 15th, 2011 at 9:08 am
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